Weighing In

What is the problem? I mean good grief, you make up your mind to do something and you should just do it. Right? Wrong! I have done such a lousy job for the last two weeks at my attack on my weight. I have a list of excuses, I mean reasons. Would you like to hear them?

1. I have been very busy at work.
2. I am remodeling the house and my time and energy has been there.
3. It’s too hard.
4. I don’t like the instructor.
5. I don’t have time.
6. I’m too tired.
7. My mind is too preoccupied with other things.

Anything but what I should be thinking of, which of course, is my choice in what goes into my mouth or my choice in my exercise plan. I haven’t been beating myself up, which was my way of saying, “See I’m in control of this thing”. So now, I’m beating myself up and coming clean with all those who care about me. I start in the morning back on my routine of exercise and my calorie count. If by the end of the week I have not lost a minimum of 5 pounds, I will allow each and every one of you to tell me what I should be doing. I really don’t need any advice until then, but I thank those of you willing to offer it.

Happy Valentines Day

I hope everyone gets and gives love today! I am not big on the flowers and candy thing, but I do like gifts. But I really like gifts when I least expect them. Terry used to do the whole roses and candy thing, but I told him I thought it was ridiculous to spend $75 on roses when you can get them any other time for $14.98. I did not however let him off the hook with gifts! I will not get upset if I don’t get anything, I know he loves me and making only one day for us to tell each other this, is absurd! But I will take this opportunity to tell all of you, I love you!

P.S. I know you’re wondering….as of yesterday I have lost a total of 15 pounds!

This little piggy...

Official loss is 12 pounds to date! You would think I would be excited, but I know it should have been more. I endulged, okay lets call it by it's real name, pigged out this weekend. I was sick with all I ate and I wasn't that thrilled with it. The brownies, the homemade chocolate chip cookies, the pancakes, the hamburgers, oh my gosh the list is unbelievable. You would have thought I was some kind of disposal for junk! I was so disappointed with myself that I worked out an extra hour this morning. I am planning on working out an extra hour tomorrow too! I know, don't keep beating yourself up, but if I don't I will begin to justify it and before you know it, I'm back on the road to overeating and coach potato olympics. I'm pretty sure it started with the homemade fudge thing and grew from there. I suppose the main thing is that I recognize that I overate. Before it would not have matter, now it does!

FUDGE!

I gave in to temptation today. It was SO worth it! Homemade Chocolate Fudge. Cut in 2" squares about a 1/4" thick. They melted in my mouth like snow melting in the sun. It was heaven! I felt a little sick at my stomach afterwards, but OH tasting it on my tongue was incredible. Okay your asking, "Why is she so excited over a piece of homemade fudge?". Well, I am a sucker for homemade fudge. Someone brought it to work today for someone's birthday. I was so excited you would have thought it was my birthday! I haven't made any since last summer and it's the one sweet I can not refuse! I continue eating it until I am so sick that I lay in bed moaning and groaning swearing I'll never do it again. My grandfather was the one that introduced me to such a wonderful delicacy. He could whip up a batch in no time and it always turned out perfect. He would add black walnuts or pecans and I couldn't wait to get my teeth into a piece. I did good today, I stopped after three pieces (or was it four?). I'll be back on track tomorrow, but I will hold today's memory in my mind for just a little while longer! I am so glad I did that extra 10 minutes on the bike!